In a nutshell.
I’m a crier. There. I said it. Yes, I am the one who cries at those commercials, or at that sad song. I’m the one who when you talk to me and your sad and something Is hurting you and I can sense it, feel it and hear it in your being, I will cry. I will cry because your sadness hurts me.
I’m also the one who will cry when I see something too incredibly cute, yes..a kitten or a puppy or a new baby. I often used to hate the fact that I cried so easily, but as I am getting older I am learning to embrace that part of me. It is who I am and it is what makes me..me.
I have spent a great deal of time writing about all my disappointments and all that has gone wrong in my life that sometimes I wonder if people associate me with being “An angry closed off person”..or maybe I see myself that way. I’m not sure, sometimes the way we perceive what others think of us, is really how we feel about ourselves. I do believe this to be the truth.
So here I am finding myself wanting to apologize for blogging about my complaints. Then I realize that, this is my blog and these are my feelings. I certainly do not do it to offend anyone or make anyone roll their eyes at me “There she goes again..complaining about her life” it simply is my way of releasing all of the heavy stuff that my mind carries around on a daily basis. Sometimes my burden gets too heavy to carry around and sometimes I just need to be able to let it all go. I need to be able to toss it out there and hope that I did some healing within my self along the way. I don’t always likes to go back and read what I have blogged about because then I may start to regret saying things or putting myself out there and I find myself deleting my feelings and my thoughts as if they are some deep dark secret.
What I am learning to realize is that I have nothing to be ashamed about. I have done nothing wrong and I have not hurt anyone in the process (if I did, that certainly was not my intention). My hope is that when people read about my life and my ups and downs that they can somehow connect to me. I realize I am not alone in my trials and tribulations, and if just one person can connect to me then I feel all of my writing has not been lost.
Life is not easy, life comes with a lot of disappointments, but it also comes with a lot of joy and happiness..the key is to try to learn how to embrace it- to truly embrace it and wrap your soul around it. I’m still learning and I am a work a progress. It is my guess that you, too, are a work in progress. If that is the case, let us learn together.