Yesterday was a rest day, I worked and did not drag my butt out of bed until almost 4pm! Then of course, we had a softball game to attend, so I had to hustle hustle! Tried to get to bed at a reasonable time, but lately it’s never before midnight, and this morning I had to get up to take the kid to the gym for 9am.
Today: Day 197
Ran 3.5 miles- more like slog, but I got out there and got it done.
Main Lift: Squat
Warm-up- 5×65, 5×85, 3×101
Actual- 5×110, 5×125, 5+x141 (8) I probably could have eaked out 1 or 2 more, but Wendler is pretty consistent with saying don’t take It to failure. So I take it to where I’m definitely tired, but if I had a gun to my head, I could do 1 or 2 more. HA!
Lying Leg Curls- 3×10@45lbs
Standing Military Presses-3×8@20 (Dumbells)
I was beat. My legs were like WTF lady!! I will try walking lunges again on my deadlift day in a few days.
I’m tired and I’m beat. I really am. Tomorrow will be another off day, I *think*… it will only be Wednesday and I only have two more lifting days to get in this week. I can spread them out. Maybe I will walk, definitely no run. I think I will try, TRY to get back 3 running days into my schedule, 2 will be before my leg workouts and one more will be sprinkled in somewhere. Why run on a leg day? Well, because it will maximize my leg day, and It won’t over tax them. Say I chose to do my runs on NON leg days, it would be like my legs are getting NO rest at all. Upper, Run, Legs, Run, Upper, Run, Legs, Run. I’m going at it 7 days a week at that rate. I need at least 2 complete rest days in there with NOTHING going on. I asked around as well, and that seemed to be the consensus. Well, the consensus was actually that I did not NEED to do cardio at all, or if I wanted to, do very little and make it HIIT, so I lose no muscle mass. I think it’s safe to say that I’m the kind of gal that needs a little cardio in her life.
So this is the problem I run into. I lose all my weight up top FIRST..then it comes off the bottom. NO, I’m not holding this in! How do I washboard this? Crunches. I HATE crunches. YUCK. Why can’t crunches and ab work be fun?!
Ugh. Why do I have to make this so difficult? I don’t know why I allow myself to struggle so much with my body image. Yesterday I was happy, yes. It was not long after before all the self doubt began to creep into my head, like, “What are you doing? Why would you want to weight train an already big body? Why would you run the risk of growing and having the scale go up as well as your clothing size to fit your legs?”
I don’t truly know where the happy medium is. Everything inside me screams to go back to the higher mileage running, burn those calories, but the reality is that slow sustained cardio is not the answer. It may have worked the first year, but it slowed way down. Then I think, what was I doing when I weighed 125. Ahhh, I was running higher mileage and NOT eating due to stress and job challenges with my husband. Of course.. But I think that is where I probably started damaging my metabolism. I think I lived on and off that way for about a year. Don’t get me wrong, running is good! I have learned that running for so long, eventually stops working or slows down the weight loss tremendously after a period of time. I know in my head that weight training, combined with SOME cardio is MUCH better. I have this little whisper that keeps saying, you can get back to 125 if you cut your calories way back down and run longer again. No. I have to keep forging forward, continue on the path that I am, to prove to myself that I’m doing the right thing.
It’s probably safe to say that unless you have struggled with this, you could never truly appreciate what goes on inside our train of thinking. I can look at a picture of myself, and be happy, but as soon as you associate a number with it such as weight or body fat %, all of that goes out the window. I realize I AM truly a prisoner to the number. I need to not be.
This journey has made me realize that I need to learn how to have a healthy relationship with my body. Baby steps. I think yes. So bear with me while I work through some of this crap.
Friday April 26th- Day 250
Rest Day (Worked from 3pm-3am anyway)
Saturday April 27th- Day 249
Ran 5.0 miles
Slept until 11ish, woke up got Sierra ready for her Chapter Championships, RAN, came home, showered and off to Jersey for Logan’s Region 7, competition. He was one of the top 3 in the State (Age group/level) to make the PA State All Star Team! Last competition of the season!
Which he did well in considering there was PA, NJ, DE, VA, WV, MA and NY representing with their best of the best. 4th for Vault, which was a shock since that was our weakness all year long- AND he got a heel contusion a week out. 9th on Pbars and 10th on Floor. IN THE REGION! So, I can’t complain and he was tickled. We also won 1st place as a team! Woot! The boys each got a nice gold medal and a big canvas sign.
Sunday April 28th- Day 248
Ran 5.0 miles (which I’m shocked I did, but it was a nice day and I felt good)
So this is where you will shake your head at me. I’m thinking of doing Wendlers 5/3/1 program. I bought his e-book and have been reading it. The only part I don’t like is the math. Since, I’m math illiterate, it may take me a while to get the hang of it. Today I tried to figure out my 1rm on the overhead press and I probably messed it up, I did it wrong as well as missing my warm up sets. I will start again tomorrow, so my workout is a little weird today. Pay no mind to it.
Shrugs- 3×15 @30lbs
DB Rows- 3×12@30lbs
Tri Dips-5×10 with my body weight
The last 3 were assistive exercises. The big lifts are the core of the workout. I will be doing 3/4 days with the big lifts being overhead press, benchpress, deadlift, and squat (all have their assistive on those days as well). I’m sure you will see some not hot looking workouts until I figure it out. This is NOT a ripped in 30 days program, it progresses with a deloading week at the end of each cycle.
If your interested, just look up Wendler 5/3/1. It’s more of a powerlifting program vs a bodybuilding program BUT, you can variate it to your liking, as long as you keep the basic premise. I, personally am not so much into powerlifting, but I like the fact that it is geared towards long-term gains vs short-term quick fixes. It will keep my interest longer I think.
Off to work tonight Different hours the last couple days, all in the name of the kid and their sports.
Woke up early, but drifted In and out until 11. Drug myself out of bed after the banging in the backyard would not stop, thanks to the oldest.
Got in 5 miles, it could have been either 10 degrees warmer with the wind or 5 degrees warmer sans the wind. I always forget how much I hate running in the gusts. Until a gusty day is upon me. I’m at the point in the month with my hormonal shifts that not only do my moods suck, but my runs do as well. I hate these times. Sluggish, grumpy, pissy and mean. No weights today. Tomorrow I’m shifting to 3 days a week vs my split routine I’ve been doing.
Long day, ups and downs and I’m over it all. Night yo’
I’ve been busy, not feeling like blogging, life getting in the way, blah blah blah..here I am though! I do think everday though that I need to blog and then I’m laying in bed all comfy with my wine and NOT feeling the love. Before I know it, days and days have gone by!
April 2nd Day 274
3.0mile walk (inclined at 1%, 2% and 3%)
Hammer Curls- 5×5@ 25lbs
EZ Bar Rows- 5×5@35lbs
Preacher Curls- 5×5@55lbs
April 3rd Day 273 (The hubby worked out with me!)
5.o mile (NO he did not RUN!)
45Degree EZ bar Row-3×0@45lbs
One Are DB Rows-3×10@25lbs
Tricep Extensions- 3×8@15lbs
Tricep Dips-3×15@ BW
Close Grip Presses-3×8@55lbs
April 4 Day 272
5.0 mile run
Plie Squats- 4×0@35lbs
Single Legged squats-x10@bw
DB Front Squat-3×10@20lbs
April 5 Day 271
Nothing done on this day!
April 6 Day 270
4.0 Mile Run
No weights today again
April 7 Day 269
5.0 Mile run
Again No weights- I’m not sure what the hell was going on here? 3 Days in a row?
April 8 Day 268
Upright Rows- 3×10@45lbs
DB Lateral Raises-5×5@15lbs
Bent Over lat raises-3×8@10lbs
Hammer Curls- 3×10@20lbs
EZ bar rows-3×8@35lbs
Conc Curls with Static holds-3@15lbs (10, 8, 5)
April 9 Day 267
5.0 Mile Run
Tricep Ext 3×12@15lbs
Tricep Dips-3×20 BW (13, 15)
Overhead tricep dips- 3×5@20lbs
Push Ups- 3×15 BW (15, 15, 10)
Bench Press- 5×5 @65lbs
April 10 Day 266
Back Squats- 3×10@70lbs
Single Leg Squat-BW- 3×10
Walking Lunges- 4×20@25lbs
Plie’ Squats-3×12 35lbs
April 11 Day 265
4.0 mile run
EZ Bar Row- 3×12@35lbs
Single Arm DB Rows- 3×8 @30lbs
Only had time for 2 exercises.
Will post some pictures and rambling a little later.